Friday, May 4, 2012

When Nothing Else Works, Put It Into Writing


“Let’s be friends.”
You are the one who convinced me that we would work as a couple; and you stole it all back.
I missed you more than I should have.
The days when I don’t see you actually make this easier to get on. There is no reminder of what used to be.
Weeks went by and we finally decided that we could hang out.
I should have known that “just friends” wasn’t going to last for very long.
We both knew that back massages and tickling only lead to bad things.
After those few agonizing seconds of wondering if we were actually going to do this, you kissed me.
Kissed me as if there weren’t weeks between our last meeting.
Same touch, same taste, same tenderness. And I thought I felt that you had missed me, too.
You had me with one look from those gorgeous brown eyes.
Everything-the truth that we aren’t getting back together, the pep talk I had to give myself on my way to see you-all melted away.
I can’t consider dating anyone else because all I can think about is you. But that will pass, right?
I know that I have to be the one who ends this and says goodbye. But that is the one thing that I can’t bring myself to say to you.
Because where is the “good” in that?

Thursday, May 3, 2012

When you feel like breaking down...

When you are going through hell.... Keep on going. There is nothing like going strong when the rest of the world expects you to give up.

With so many things on my plate, you would think that I would have crashed by now. BUT with a rejuvenating trip home, I think that it has given me the little bit of oomph that I need to make it through. So far, I have pushed through 3 midterms and have 2 more to go. When I am not "hitting the books" I have found that the gym is a good place to alleviate my anger and stress. It makes me push a little harder.

Then there is Relay... Did I mention that I am also the captain of a Relay for Life team? Mmm, yeah. I have done great things by myself, but when it comes to getting everyone together, I kinda fail. Getting 10 college students together is not exactly the easiest task. It is in just over 2 weeks! YIKES! Things are slowly but surely coming together... And that is reassuring. But I do know that everything is going to be worth it in the end and knowing that keeps a smile on my face.